today i felt compelled to dye my hair. the last time i dyed my hair was in grade 12... it was a very dark brown colour. it was the wash out in 28 washes kind but it actually lasted 6 months. i didn't do anything to fix it until the end of the summer before university started. i went to the hair dresser and she had no idea how to get the shit brown colour out... so she pulled my hair through a cap and streaked sections platinum blonde and told me to come back later so i could get more.

my hair lightened a bit... but i wasn't happy. so i went to a different hairdresser and she used this special stuff that got all the yucky old dye out and then she finished off my powder lightening the sections to match my roots. the result was a very light blonde... not even comparable to my natural colour. i liked it and didn't t at the same time. i liked the intensity of the colour and the shine but it was a yellow barbie-ish colour. i went to university with this hair.

the water turned my hair all sorts of funky colours and soon my roots were showing. and when i put my hair up i had my natural colour amongst bright golden hair and it looked like shit. obviously that needed to be fixed, so i got streaks. it was obvious that my hair was messed up for eternity.

so i would say i took a good year and half for that blonde to wear out and get back to my natural colour. i get lots of complements on my natural colour and people actually think its dyed. but recently i wanted a change. i considered red but i decided that would be too drastic. then i though i could go brown again, but getting back to the blonde colour was absolutely retarded so i got rid of that idea super quick.

so i went to the drugstore today and decided i would dye my hair a colour close to my natural shade. you may think thats stupid, but i think it's smart. i thought it would give my hair shine and maybe work with my natural highlights. so i picked out a nice colour called golden honey. it was natural instincts, the stuff that washes out in a month. now i know i dyed my hair with natural instincts before and that lasted 6 months but this was blonde and since im a blonde i thought it would wash out quicker.

so anyways, i took the box home and put it all into my hair. and the dye got really dark but i wasn't really nervous. it's usually darker than the actual colour. my room mate even said, "ummm, doesn't that look a bit dark to you? your hair wont be that colour will it?" and i said no, because i thought i was right. anyways... washed it out and omg it was @#$%^&! brown!

honest to god, the box had a blonde woman on it and i cannot comprehend how my hair ended up brown. brown does not equal blonde. i liked the colour, but it was not what i wanted. if i wanted brown hair i would have bought brown dye! so now i have brown hair AGAIN and ill have to spend another 2 years getting the shit out.

my hairdresser gave me some treatment that i automatically put into my hair to get the brown out. i scrubbed my hair with baking soda and washed it 3 times with blonde shampoo and it has actually lightened. but it's still brown and i'm absolutely devastated. no offense to the brunettes out there, but i can't wear your colour. i like it on you guys but not on me. i am through and through a blonde... and i want my colour back.

every time i see a picture of me with blonde hair i cry. *posted by danes at 9:38 PM -